A poem written on the night of 23.03.07.
The pulsations in my head and the red brassiere in my face.
The wine glass there and the noise, the rain, the thunder.
Sweltering in the still air indoors, entwined in a mesh of jealous anger.
Deprivation avenged and vengeance vicious.
Bites, scars, skin, hair, scratches, nails, toes, soft inside.
Back arched in a seizure of painful vengeful pleasure.
Hurt, I hope you feel me deep inside, and deeper.
No you cannot take me from you; I am inside you.
Inextricable, I make myself inseparable from you.
Broken glass, shards here, blood there, hand pushing my face away.
Stay long enough to make you fall in love with the feeling, with what you hold inside but I possess.
And I possess you in completeness.
And I may destroy in totality.
Avenge the agony of dispossession, avenge the jealous wretchedness you brought me to.
And with a lurch, I am a breadth from skin tempt.
Inside you is created a sore void.
Do you now see? Feel?
Around you is cold stale air on bare skin.
The absence of warm embrace is an uncomfortable tingle.
You know me, you know revenge and retribution.
Eyes on fire, skin a burning canvas, blood paint.
oil and wax candles, herbs scented, heat, heat, sweat.
The void inside, come and take a chance filling it.
Now you know the taste of me, you are enslaved for want.
And your fury is a flame over your shallow breaths.
Your chest rises and dips across the sheets, the flames higher.
You bring to life the animal.
Instincts and hormones scream for blood.
Against the wall, by the window, couch, carpet, floor.
Edge of the bed, convulsions upon epileptic convulsions.
nails dig, teeth dig, hair tugged, the ceiling fan spins on hormonal surges.
The black and the red, bang bang head.
Darkness and darker mind.
Bang bang here, soft skin stretched muscular, pull you closer.
Hands on your perfect behind, a hard pull, take me deeper.
Deeper, head stretched back, tense neck between my teeth.
Salty sweat and the morning's careful perfume lily's phantom, baked mud from a hard day - a Molotov cocktail in my mouth.
Lower, soft breasts bitten harder, pain more.
Pain pain.
My teeth sink deeper into supple skin, blood is the final ingredient.
The cocktail has my mouth on fire, fluid saliva from your mouth the saviour.
Your mouth, I set ablaze, bit lips blood blood.
Drop and drop licked away.
Salty water leaks from our eyes.
Drop and drop stirred in.
Ablaze, the fire we share in the union of our oralities, a riot.
Tongues duel, lips in teeth, tears tears, taste you.
A fire contained is an explosion rigged.
In the last spasmodic eruption, a piece of me snatched away.
Faces thrown apart, we breathe fire to heavens above.
Ice on raw skin, we bathe us tenderly.
The pulsations in my head and the red brassiere in my face.
The wine glass there and the noise, the rain, the thunder.
Sweltering in the still air indoors, entwined in a mesh of jealous anger.
Deprivation avenged and vengeance vicious.
Bites, scars, skin, hair, scratches, nails, toes, soft inside.
Back arched in a seizure of painful vengeful pleasure.
Hurt, I hope you feel me deep inside, and deeper.
No you cannot take me from you; I am inside you.
Inextricable, I make myself inseparable from you.
Broken glass, shards here, blood there, hand pushing my face away.
Stay long enough to make you fall in love with the feeling, with what you hold inside but I possess.
And I possess you in completeness.
And I may destroy in totality.
Avenge the agony of dispossession, avenge the jealous wretchedness you brought me to.
And with a lurch, I am a breadth from skin tempt.
Inside you is created a sore void.
Do you now see? Feel?
Around you is cold stale air on bare skin.
The absence of warm embrace is an uncomfortable tingle.
You know me, you know revenge and retribution.
Eyes on fire, skin a burning canvas, blood paint.
oil and wax candles, herbs scented, heat, heat, sweat.
The void inside, come and take a chance filling it.
Now you know the taste of me, you are enslaved for want.
And your fury is a flame over your shallow breaths.
Your chest rises and dips across the sheets, the flames higher.
You bring to life the animal.
Instincts and hormones scream for blood.
Against the wall, by the window, couch, carpet, floor.
Edge of the bed, convulsions upon epileptic convulsions.
nails dig, teeth dig, hair tugged, the ceiling fan spins on hormonal surges.
The black and the red, bang bang head.
Darkness and darker mind.
Bang bang here, soft skin stretched muscular, pull you closer.
Hands on your perfect behind, a hard pull, take me deeper.
Deeper, head stretched back, tense neck between my teeth.
Salty sweat and the morning's careful perfume lily's phantom, baked mud from a hard day - a Molotov cocktail in my mouth.
Lower, soft breasts bitten harder, pain more.
Pain pain.
My teeth sink deeper into supple skin, blood is the final ingredient.
The cocktail has my mouth on fire, fluid saliva from your mouth the saviour.
Your mouth, I set ablaze, bit lips blood blood.
Drop and drop licked away.
Salty water leaks from our eyes.
Drop and drop stirred in.
Ablaze, the fire we share in the union of our oralities, a riot.
Tongues duel, lips in teeth, tears tears, taste you.
A fire contained is an explosion rigged.
In the last spasmodic eruption, a piece of me snatched away.
Faces thrown apart, we breathe fire to heavens above.
Ice on raw skin, we bathe us tenderly.
